Have you ever had the feeling that someone you trusted was intentionally pulling the wool over your eyes? That someone that you thought you could ask important things and get the truth from was taking advantage of you??? I recently have.

I am not mad so much at the fact that I was duped…though I am angry that I was taken as a fool. Which, I guess I was… But they had to know that I would find out. They had to understand my nature and that I would eventually see the deception in their eyes. How can I ever possibly be able to see them in the same light again??? Seriously…

What’s worse is that you can’t possibly tell anyone because on top of unspoken promises already made they either won’t care, won’t understand, or are already too deep in to be able talk to you in any fashion other then insane. Maybe I am just paranoid, or am bad at calculating certain things.

I have already said too much. I ain’t trying to drop too many hints, don’t need the aforementioned persons getting all worried and what not or just asking to know for the sake of asking to know. To those of you who are not one of those persons I apologize for not being able to talk about this further.

Oh well…I got fucked…everyone does now and again, right? Is it wrong that knowing that other people have been screwed worse then me makes me feel just the slightest bit better? Don’t answer that. I don’t really care if it is. I am the only one who truly knows what I am thinking.

I have learned a valuable lesson, and for that I am thankful. I am usually a very vengeful person…I wouldn’t think twice to underhandedly do something malicious to get revenge…even if they never knew it was me. In fact, I have done it many times. I feel I was required to do so by some unseen force. It’s the the satisfaction of knowing that I got one over on them and they will never be the wiser. Kinda like proving to them that Karma is something that may just be real, and that they are being cosmically regulated. Though…this time I think I will just let it go.